all consuming

Sometimes, I'm filled with an all consuming worry about the days ahead.  I find it difficult to accept that whatever will be is mostly beyond my control and I shouldn't let it affect today.  For the duration of my pregnancy, I've tried to be positive and mostly I have achieved this, but every now and again a panic will overcome me about the health of my baby, about labour and childbirth, or about how we will cope with two so very young children.  

I do wish I could be the person that believes in herself enough and those around her to know that whatever does happen tomorrow will be what we have been dealt in life and whether it is a blessing or a challenge, one way or another, we will cope.